now, let me tell you a story. here we go.

          Once upon a time, there was a girl. a girl that people used to call her Sandy. One beautiful day, she started a new page of her life, which is, her first day on her dream job that she finally got it. At first, everything was going on well until a guy came and talk to her, that's where it all started. At first she know that nothing can ever happen between both of them, until the day the guy admit at her that he's fall for her. Guess what happen? Sandy took days to think about it, but she believes that no matter what the guy will do, he will never make her fall for him.
          Day by day, the guy who was known as CJ, done everything to convinced her that he really likes her. But in her life dictionary, likes, loves and adore are totally not the same. So, she take a little of her time to see what the guy willing to do for her. Yes, everyone noticed that CJ are doing on his best to flirt on her but it wasn't that easy. She didn't give him any chance for a YES word.
          She know that she should put a distance and burn the bridge between them. but she realized that the path that they made already too late. Things were not like before, he finally made her fall for him. She can't even spend her day without enjoying the moment that she always shared with CJ. yes, CJ made it. CJ made her fall for him, over and over again. CJ and Sandy shared a lot than a friend used to. She saw something bright inside CJ and that's what make Sandy fall for him.
          Everything running on well until the day, where they had a little argue where CJ accidentally raised his voice in front of Sandy and their friends. Sandy was ashamed, a bitter memory was recall. She run and hid herself from CJ. CJ felt guilty, he tried to convinced Sandy that it was accidental, not on purpose, but Sandy cried. She never thought the guy that so close to her made that to her. CJ tried his best but ignored by Sandy.
           One night, Sandy realized, if she keep being that childish way, until when it gonna be? Sandy close her eyes, took her phone and text CJ that she ready to accept CJ's apologize. and everything back to normal. Day by day, the feelings changed. Sandy didn't feel the same ways like she felt before to CJ but Sandy convinced herself that it was just a temporary and everything can changed, anytime and anywhere.
           Few months past, things between CJ and Sandy were not like before. CJ being so cold. Sandy starts to avoid him. Her ego made her that way, CJ tried to talk but she prefer being silent. Sandy and CJ just so not like before. not close like before. their friends noticed it but Sandy try to avoid the question that she don't wanna listen and answer to. She being so cold.
          Conversation dies, saw each other just like saw rival, they quit talking, Sandy starts it first. They make each other jealous. CJ hurts her by being too close with another girl. He didn't act the way he is before. Sandy incredibly sad and down. She miss the old CJ. She miss the memories, laugh and jokes that exist between them. Sandy became someone who was so damn egoist. She made CJ like nothing, she can spent her time with different guys just to make CJ get jealous but all that she care was, she wished that guy was CJ.
          Sandy and CJ almost being a stranger who never met before. They only talks if they want to. if not, they let the silent exist between them. One of them tried to make the conversation or their ways going well but things never run out like what he or she want to. Sandy told CJ before, once one of them let the coldness exist between them, they're not like before. Maybe it's some kind of joke for others but what Sandy said is true. There was a big ice that totally hard for them to break it off.
          And now, things were totally not the same. They didn't contact each other like before, all Sandy can do, staring at her phone, wondering if CJ would text her or not but it always ended NO. Sandy realized, maybe it's the right time for her to move and never turn back moment. Even for Sandy, it is hurts but what else she can do? She maybe will miss the memories that they had shared together. Jokes that they used to laugh together. Time that they used to spend together. Sandy realized, it is time for her to close her books for that chapter and starts a new one. Sandy decides to leave and forget everything. She'll moving on to the new path and her new life's chapter, but she wonder, will I ever be okay if I'm doing all this? will I not be hurt anymore? will I be able to erase the memory that exist? will I forget the laugh that we shared? so then, the big question mark that exist, WILL I?

lotsa lova;

Lady Mary Valenny Jane

07/05/2014