Now, tell me. how good it is for being hurt? being hurt by the person who even mean the world to you? maybe some of us never feel this way. Person who mean the world to you here was not only so called your lover but it can be your family, your friends and mostly you. know what? hurt by your own self just the worst thing can be ever happen.Why pretend to be someone who truly not the real you? Why keep saying I'm okay even you're not okay? it easy. we want to keep others shut and says, "Oh nothing really happen, she/he just okay." but the truth is, deep inside you are shouting and screaming. screaming about things that you can't never expect. you hate for being alone but what else you can do? People smiling at you but the thing is, is that real? yes, we're living in this mother earth where all people totally have their two sided of faces. Does that make it sense to make them realize what they have said before? "I hate two sided type of people" but do they realize, that they are doing the same thing over and over again?
Things might change, no, yes, things will change if you took some of your time to sit and realized, why you chose to be melancholy if you don't have to? why you choosing the wrong path even you can choose the right one? yes, small voices keep talking to us on our mind. even facebook asking you, what's on your mind? twitter, What's happening? and Wechat? well, it's blank, after you press and hold the camera symbol about 5 seconds, enough about that, back to what I'm trying to say here, I was hurt by my own feelings. I know it sucks but that's what I keep for myself. I can't even answer if they ask me, are you okay? even when I answer them, yes I am fine but people who knew the real me will directly said, "No, you're not". life maybe fucked us all the time, yes sure it is. aishhh, why I can't even express the words that I truly want? I've got so many things running on my mind, I just can't let it out. yes this is spontaneous writing. but, oh well. I'm just not okay. I admit that. *bighsigh