Valenny? Georgie?
It is hard to explain how I turn my life this two years with the same man HAHA kidding! I've been away since I can't recall when, but I wanna wish myself and Georgie, Happy Two Years being together. Well, 2016 was awesome since it was 366 days instead of 365 days. And for sure, Valenny won't write something that is short, oh please, like none of you didn't know her.
There You Go.
So, I wont tell the same thing for what happen in 2015 since we've nailed it. So let me begin with 2016. psst I wont tell everything, no worries.
So, everyone knows that he is working in Starbucks International Departure Hall and yes, everybody knows that I used to be a hotelier, USED TO BE. so I'm giving up with my hotel's life and moving on to F&B life, I don't know whether I've made the right decision at 1st, but God's plans aye!
Our relationship wasn't that so call #relationshipgoals, oh don't be. We kinda eww when people used to called us that way. We ain't perfect. Our relationship not that perfect. You know, people used to say, as couple, both of you will get to know each other, a lot. Let me tell you something, our relationship now, more than just a couple. We so called Husband & Wife but we're still not putting any ring on our finger since we though it was too early for us.
Last year, I might be missing him and counting on days when I can spend my whole day with him since we still stay with our parents. But I don't know, my parents decided to leave my brother and I in KK, just us. in sudden, without any preparation. And do you think I am ready bout it? I am not.
Since last year until this year, we've been through a lot, A LOT LIKE A LOT! how in sudden, family against us, and my career, where we've got that money issues. I even told him that I do wanna go back to my parents, leaving my life here but he refused to and he told me, "why giving up so soon? If I can make it, with you. Why don't you do the same, with me?" I bet he is right, he got his point there.
There is one time where both of us totally broke. Running out of money, foods and life HAHA not life, kidding! But yeah, there was a time where both of hungry and out of mind, thinking. what should we eat for the day since we didn't have any money left. It's sad isn't it? But we looked at each other at that time and said, "If we can survive after all this year, months, why not now?" We looking for a solution and we find one, we looked for coins (since we always throw away our coins) and we managed to bought maggies like two packets and two eggs. So I cooked it and that was our dinner, together with rice. At that time, we looked at each other, we prayed (yes we prayed before eat) and give thanks to God, even that is the only food that we can eat, we giving him thanks, better than starving.
We fight, we argue and there is one time no, few times where I almost giving up on him and asked him to leave me since I cant do this relationship anymore. I thought he would say yes, since he's been dealing with this, quite few times (lol experienced! haha) but he keep silent, packed his thing and i just sat there watched him, and he asked me, again. "Is this what you really want Valenny? I'm leaving?" I remember that time, I just remained silent cause I dont know what to do. I said to myself, "Valenny, are you gonna be okay without him? look at that man for the last time, are you willing to let him go? Will he ever get back to you once he left? Will you guys talk to each other, anymore?" that questions struck me hard and I hugged him and said, "Stay, dont leave. Im scared" HAHAHAHA tbh, I cant live without him.
He did told me like so many times how much he loves me and how he told me not to giving up. He even cried in front of me, like three times? He did. He looks so precious, a pure heart with all those broken pieces. I come to him when I was broken, he healed me slowly. He shows to me that I can love again, he fixes me, I fix him. There was a night, where I told him that I just don't wanna be with him anymore. He sat there and smokes, he asked me why, I just told him, part of me want him but another part of me, wanting to let him go. I thought he just gonna sat there and didn't wanna talk, I was wrong. He hugged me and said, "Why Valenny why? Why you being like this? Is there anyone replacing me? Is there anyone giving you more than I ever gave you? Am I giving pain in your life? Valenny please, I'm begging you don't. We still got a long way to go. I want you to walk with me, don't stop Valenny. I see my future with you" he cried, I realized on that night, why is this happening to me?
When I was alone, sitting and listening to music, it makes me think. GEORGIE ARLIE. he is more than just a man, more than just GEORGIE, he's more than that. he might me look weird and nerd and innocent, yes he is. But he is more than that. People do asked me, what do I saw in him. Look, I saw his love, he supports me and he is trying. He's not like a Prince Charming, he wasn't. He saw my pain and he healed it. He saw I cried, he cheered me. He is my other part, my missing puzzle piece. God knows I lost much parts in me, He gave me him. He gave me Georgie. He started to complete me piece by piece. He's not that good, but he's trying. He never shows that he is giving up. He never asked me to leave, he never. It was only me. And I felt stupid for acting that way. I am sorry Georgie.
I still remember when I'm facing the biggest challenge I ever had, operations. yes, my right hand been undergo surgeries due to a cryst that keep growing and hurts me. He learned how to take care of me, how to tied my hair, how to handle me when I'm taking my shower and he even washed my hair HAHA he even 'suap' me and treat me well. Thank you Georgie.
What is relationship without happy and sadness and fight? I wonder what. There was a time where I miss to argue with him and so I will do anything to make him mad at me HAHA I am sorry love. There was a time where I do miss him even we live together, oh I didn't told you am I? yes, we're living together now for a year. I felt sorry for those who abandoned him and leave him even when he said, he loves them. I felt sorry when I saw breakups and cheating. I felt sorry. I've been through that and I know how it feels. And I am lucky for having someone who loves me even he knows bout my past. He knows. And how he handled my jealousy, I'm still trying to resist it, I just can't, LOL!
Looking at him sleeping, was the best part I ever had. He looks so innocent and pure, he is. The first thing he woke up when he saw me, he smiled and he kissed. I wonder, where are you after all this time Georgie? Saw him laughing over stupid videos, how both of us act like a kid, how I told him that I hate his exes HAHA how we played games, how he beat me and acting like a pro. I do love him, you know.
We're still trying to convince ourselves that we reached our second year together. Well, Two Years wasn't that easy. Yes, we might be still just a couple, a boyfriend and girlfriend but we still don't care tho. If we can get through this, why not someday? We had our birthday's together, second year Christmas together. Second new year together and we had our new year kiss HAHA it's been two years and we're aiming more.
Remember, no relationship whether husband and wife, fiance and fiancee, none of those could be perfect. Human will never be perfect, even we tried. I always told him this, "This life is a journey. Never bragged bout it, spend it wisely and cherish every moment of it. You will enjoy every single step that you take. Never look at the same pages over and over again. Open a new page and starts to write something new. Someday when you open the old pages, you have something to smile and remember."
Yes, this life totally a journey.
Good luck with it, and have fun.
here are some photos of us.
Thankyou,
The newest selfies, our second year together. Instead of fancy dinners, roses and chocolate, I got horse ride :)
Georgie, please remember that you own this heart and I will always be there for you no matter what, always.
With love,
Lady Valenny
17/02/17
12:30am.