It is been a while for writing and since I can't express my feelings in voice, I decided to write. Here is what I called, my whatever writing plus I can't think. Everything explode inside me, I am lost.
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To the sky that blue - it turns gray in my eyes.
To the sea that move - it remain quite.
I tried, I am trying yet it will never be enough.
I am waiting, the answer is not what I expected.
I tried to hold it, I can't.
I'm powerless, I am just a human.
My walls are destroy, I can't save it.
One frown of look, I had to let it go - I can't save it.
I tried, it is just not enough.
I'm lost, I can't find my way back.
Is there anyone listen at me?
I see my shadow, the only one who always around.
Crowded places with lots of people,
It makes me scare, who are they? why am I here?
Run Vally run - but where to?
I realize, I have nowhere to go.
What should I do after this?
Why should I stay alive?
Why should I?
Shits are coming back,
This time it was hard - hard than what I faced before.
I smiled - nobody notice how it was inside me.
Cry they said, I don't find it is useful.
Walls - why are you cracking?
Why I stop build you? - I shouldn't.
Hey listen hey - NO, it was all wrong.
Why should I? nobody listen to me.
Stay alive - the only thing I can do.
If only, it is not a sin.
Do you feel what I feel? does it hurts?
No, I feel numb - pain become painless.
I am trying - until when?
I am giving up - they told me I can't.
I see fire - it feels warm.
It burns me - I don't feel it will harm me.
Words, yes words, it kills more.
Why? - it is always on my mind.
Playlist - I didn't make one,
Brain made it for me.
I'm in pain - I tried to ignore it.
Can I? Will I? Am I?
Lady Mary Valenny Jane
09:42
09 Nov 18